Depression really zaps your energy. Like I’ve mentioned before I initially became depressed back in May. I stopped running and biking and doing anything physical. I lost the energy. Last February I ran a 26:06 5k. But in May I was struggling to finish 3 miles. I began losing motivation and running less and less. … Continue reading Running Depression Into the Ground
Recently I’ve been consumed with these intruding thoughts of death. Not specifically suicidal thoughts. More fearful thoughts of death. And not just my death. I’m obsessing over the death of family and even my pets. Now I can’t pinpoint when these thoughts started. I think the idea just happened to pop into my head one… Continue reading Death Obsession?
Today I ran! Before I became depressed in May I was in fantastic shape. I ran anywhere from 20 miles a week up to 35. 6 days a week. Sometimes twice in one day. I guess you can say I was a little obsessed. I was fit and happy. Running was my life saver.
It’s the beginning of a new year and I’m starting it alone. Now granted, I’m scared to go out. I’m scared of drinking too much and I’m scared of driving. But damn it is lonely. I’m jealous of my friends. Seeing everyone’s Facebook and party pictures and check ins is making me sad. Everyone’s having… Continue reading My 5 Plans for 2016
2015 was the year of doubles. 2 jobs 2 boys 2 apartments 2 mental meltdowns 2 ER visits It wasn’t the best year but it also wasn’t the worst either.
So because I haven’t been blogging for too long I’ve never done anything like this! I’m excited to included in this! Thanks Shaun, Tales in Anxiety, for nominating me! The Rules: Thank the person who nominated you Answer the 11 questions from your nominator Nominate 11 bloggers and give them 11 questions to answer Questions… Continue reading The Sunshine Blogger Award
I braved the mall today! I mean I wasn’t by myself. My grandmother tagged along. Eh, more like I tagged along with her. She’s pretty feisty for a grandma. Christmas shopping ✔️ Even when I’m feeling pretty normal I’m not the biggest fan of shopping. I’m more of a one and done kinda girl. Stores… Continue reading Mall Madness
So I’ve been quite weary of disclosing any real personal information. I’ve been afraid of people knowing the real me. The real Sarah. And All graphic, gory details. But I no longer want to be scared and hide behind a fake smile. So that’s my name. Sarah. This is me… Bree & Me I am… Continue reading My E! True Hollywood Story
For about a month now I’ve been down in the dumps. Not like not get out of bed depressed, more of a I don’t care about anything depressed. My life was feeling like it had no direction. I had no desire to get another job nor do anything fun with my friends. I wasn’t interested… Continue reading Rise and Shine
So due to the surplus of nightmares I had last night I decided to look into it. For years I’ve had these lucid nightmares. The ones where you’re stuck inside it. I’ve had dreams where I’m screaming for help but the words come out as jibberish. Ones where your paralyzed and you have to jerk… Continue reading More on Bipolar Nightmares
Bipolar is for Life 