So the last time I posted I was half drunk, sitting on the side of the road, and slashing up my leg. I didn’t go to the hospital. I was there. I was sitting in the ER parking lot in case I cut too deep and started bleeding out. I was a bit scared. I… Continue reading Cutting Again
Hello my friends. I hate to say I’ve neglected my blog. I said I wouldn’t.. But I did. I got distracted and life happened. It happens. But yes.. Life happened. Life shook me up a bit. It started a few weeks ago. I woke up one day at 1 pm. And after that it only… Continue reading Bloody
I have one major thing that is troubling me these days. I’m still having these intruding thoughts of death of my family. It feels like at all moments of the day I’m thinking these thoughts. While I’m driving. Watching TV. When I’m doing homework. While I’m running. While I’m attempting to write this post. I… Continue reading Haunted
Now that I’ve gotten my moods under control I just have one thing to tackle. My anxiety. One thing is troubling me right now specifically. I have a 10 mile run tomorrow. The thing is I’m not worried about the mileage. I’ve run 10 miles before, I can do it again. What I’m most worried… Continue reading 10 Miler
I’m doing so well and I’m so happy but one thing seems to never leave my mind. Suicide. Tonight as I walked my dog I heard some whipping, popping noise. It was the noise of flag flapping in the wind. It was the flag atop the building across the street. 50+ stories up. As I… Continue reading Suicidal? Not Really
I really think I have some mild form of OCD. Now I don’t want to be one of those annoying people that tries to self diagnosis themselves after checking their symptoms on WebMD. Being bipolar I hate those people. Someone reads mood changes and suddenly they think they need to see a psychiatrist. If… Continue reading So I Don’t Want to Self Diagnosis
So I kinda did what I told myself I wouldn’t: I neglected this blog. But what can I say? I’ve been doing great. I actually have forgotten that I’m different and bipolar. I feel like a normal person again. I didn’t really forget though. Those four pills won’t let me forget. I’ve been busy, not… Continue reading I Feel Great!